On the Road Already

I so want to be on the road. I have places to go and people to see.

One of the most difficult things about aventures is something always has to be left behind. And I have tried to leave this place more than once and it keeps drawing me back. I want to be gone. I want to say goodbye and wave sweetly and feel the pang in stomach. Because this is the only way that I can get to the exhileration of starting something new.

This starting something new has kept me attached to SFC for so long. Every sememster new students, new classes, something else to learn, something else to write. But that seems to be gone. We are using other peoples stuff in the classroom and there is no time for the exhileration of creation.

I love teaching. I love new classes - starting the process of making individual students a learning community, a group with a common goal - learn (or even just getting through this class). I like setting up situations where they have to depend on one another rather than me.

Sooner or later I will be off. I just need to be in the moment now. To drink in all of the love.

Mostly I love the process of taking on new information - learning from the students, learning so I can teach them, sorting out the important foundational parts. I will miss this. I will miss the students.

There is something very seductive about watching a person redefine themselves. Starting off timid, or angry and finding something inside themselves, through education, that they did not realize was there. Once you are a part of that it is hard to walk away from it and it redefined me.