One of the most difficult things about being an adult with ADD is that every time I think I have decided about something, a better idea comes up and I'm off in a new direction. This looks strangely like I don't have my shit together to most of the people who love and care about me.
And being and extrovert with ADD is even worst because I am actually communicating all of my thought process with the outside world who is hoping desperately that I will "make a decision already." It is part of the process. One of the hardest things for me is that everyone wants to weigh in on one option or another and they all have very good ideas about why that option is better then the rest but mostly they don't understand that I just need to hear all of the options out loud so that I can decide.
Then the cycle starts: thought comes into head, not fully formed thought comes out of mouth, unsuspecting audience feels the need to make contribution, thought gets distorted, goes back into head as new thought, and back out of mouth.
This entire situation is exaggerated by the fact that I am contemplating (and doing) things that many of them find a little outrageous. But in all of this they seem to still love me.
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